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The ice and salt of the Northern waters

Settling within the bottom of my lungs

The streams that assailed me as I swam against them

With a wish to be pulled to the bed of the tides

With the passage of time, my eyes have adjusted

To the encroaching shroud, my lack of a purpose

My memories of you, of being someone else

Sealed in amber, fantasies of a child

The night is damp, thick in the deadened shades of black

I stand beneath the trees

Watching the moonlight shimmering through their leaves

Casting their shadows over me, across the clearing

To obscure me from view, drinking the hot summer air

The winds washing over me

Have all my years

Simply disappeared

Like nothing's changed

This old ache still remains

The desire is still in me

Cool and frail against my chest

I stood here unseen

And prayed to you

Unworthy am I

Undeserving am I

You were my deity

Porous was your beauty

Mirror down your sun

To light my face in this mire

My refuge in this darkness

I've paid for in my nightmares

Nothing carnal or cerebral

Only you and only I, for a moment

For a moment, I could feel you

A fleeting time in which to

Worship, knowing this elation cannot be

Permanent, so unguarded and pure

And I know, this moment will never return

Your hand against my cheek

There are no secrets here

I find the embrace of the earth

And all that I know is love