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we used to gaze up at the stars

and witness as they were born

I placed your heart with mine

and we sang through the night

it was a mistake

to place your heart with mine

every time I got close

you drew me away

ever since you've left

I caged by heart

in solid concrete

I will never love again

not even myself

I push everyone away

living in a dark room

even my tears are dry

my throat burns

my eyes, bloodshot

ever since you've left me

here in the darkest corners

of my mind

I've been afraid to leave

I see you every time

I close my eyes

I see you almost every night

I hope this night will be my last

I often think of swallowing

all the pills I can find

so I can overdose in my sleep

and I'm afraid tonight may be that night

you'll see me soon

if you try hard enough

play the fucking victim

see if I care

because I don't anymore

it just hurts inside

not like you care though

you never did...

each time I look up at the stars

I think of you

and remember what we once was

I also remember how you betrayed me

nothing can hurt more than this

I wish I knew how to let you go