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Endless days of torment

constant sleepless nights

I keep thinking to myself how it'll all be different

if only I had never met you...

Isn't it funny how you preyed on all my weaknesses?

and used each of them to your advantage

and how I was so naive

even when you'd lure me into the woods

even when you'd pin me down

and kept me silent

you convinced me those things were normal and "acts of love"

while I cried myself to sleep every single night

and once you've had enough of me

you told I did all those vile things to you

even though you forced me to endure all of it

the crying, the screaming

the way you'd force my joints out the sockets

for your own selfish gain

now I force myself into isolation

as I begin to starve myself for days

all this pain

all this built up anguish...

all of the hurt...

all of the denial...

all the trauma...

all the flashbacks...

all the seizures...

all the self neglect...

you got away with it all

you're living a more successful life

full of joy and opportunity

while I rot in this skin you had fucking defiled

terrified to leave the house

terrified to sleep

malnourished and covered in wounds

you never gave a fuck about me

you only cared for your own horny fun

while I'd weep in silence

all of these pent up feelings

wasting away, constantly declining

I still feel your hands on me

and I can shower for days

but I don't feel clean at all

there is no end

there will never be an end to this...