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Every failed attempt

reflects onto my life

no blade is sharp enough

and no car is fast enough

I miss the happier days

I miss that feeling

where everything is alright

even if it's not

but it won't ever come back...

if only the past could return to me

if only these things

never happened for a reason

if only...

what if I never was?

maybe I should have never felt this way

maybe I should have never even existed

cut myself

drain my veins

the blade is dull

hide the knife

so no one knows

write a letter

hide it away

like the feelings I've bottled up

depression strains me

like a broken nerve

say goodbye

watch as life leaves my eyes

watch as blood leaves my veins

if only...