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If I wake

Do not approach me

My heart pulsating

Painfully twitching

Silently, I force myself to roll

Onto the floor from my bed

I feel paralysed from the waist

Such a pathetic waste I am

I hope when I close my eyes

They will never open again

I am the failure

I can't forgive

And if I never wake

I wouldn't complain

My eyes roll back into my skull

As the pain gets worse

A knife in my chest

I can only see grey and white and black

and nothing that I can make sense of

Pain lives inside of me

Only despair can be found

The only attention I gain

Is from almost breaking my hands

I embrace the agony

I close my eyes and think to myself

I will let this seizure

Take my life away

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