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I inhaled the guilt

that smothered the room

I heard that not even the sombre clouds

could wash away the pain

I wish I could tell you

I can hide my shame

we shared so many memories

but it felt like you never knew me

even if I hide my guilt

the grief endlessly consumes me

this undying sadness

I watched your lips turn blue

I watched as life escaped from your eyes

there is no solace here

there is no remorse

from the disease

that took you away...

there is nothing

I heard stories of how quiet

it was at your funeral

with everyone's head hung low

in the pews

as they approached

you in the coffin

later that day

I heard you whisper my name

in the mirror

later that night

sleep paralysis struck

and there you were

in my nightmares

leaning over my bed

over my head...