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no longer

do I feel what I used to

no longer

do I long to be alive

my heart still beats

but what lives within me

is no longer alive

darkness engulfs me

desperate to drown

I let everything go

my body has grown cold

my lips turned blue

I will only wither without you

joy has died

in all I used to do

life has gotten so dull and grey

pick up the pieces

my body yearns for something

more than I will ever be

and in this life I will release

all of my misery

I still feel you

in these walls

breathing down my neck

but you have left

so long ago

and my time has come

to embrace my demise

sitting alone

on the shower floor

knife in my hands

listening out to the birds

there is no joy

in what I used to enjoy

time to leave this wretched place

that stains my memory

lying lifeless

my skin has gone cold

you let me in

but I slipped away

I loved you

but I was never enough