"Now that she is gone, I have no will to carry on. No more numbness….just pain" "Picking up the pieces of time past.All that was, and all the wounds will never mend, All that should be is torn asunder. I’m trying harder, but whom to turn to, when she was all, when she is now gone? After all that has been, after all the hiding, the trying, the fighting, the lying, and the pain forms a wall, and it forms a mask, forms sweet duality. Behind, I hide. Building an urge to seek for comfort, unborn god and unnamed religion. Seeking for shreds of memory that I left inside. I bleed I fall I know Some things will never change The more I tend to rise The more I crave to fall Every night the dream is the same I long to stay in the velvet sleep Never again to feel The pain of awakening Now I sit alone Like a cold and bitter stone Waiting for a sign In the desert of denial Still feeling the pain, the pain reappears visions of two springs collide never before to fell the ache of wondering The pain won’t seize to end I got to find the remedy Seeking what I cannot find nor Grasp, and it’s puling me Down, down into that trip again Hallo baby, it’s good to see you here Sit down, grab a drink, stay for a night. I know it’s too fast and strange but Sit back, enjoy the ride. What’s that? Come on, but just don’t stop Believing that it’s true Hold me, sorry, I don’t feel a thing I’m feeling sadder and sadder No! I need to be happy, Or just to feel depressed again? Wondering where you are I wish to be with you Still I love you so A silent cry in the night Will be wept unheard, again I bleed I fall I know Some things will never change The more I tend to rise The more I crave to fall Burn it away, take it away, Fake it away, it’s ticking away Feel the need to pretend I’m behind the mask, I’m behind the wall Always fighting between my selves Regretting all I have and haven’t ever done Every night the dream is the same I long to stay in the velvet sleep Never again to feel The pain of awakening As the city lights still flicker down below With all its glorious insignificant glow One light is slowly fading away And no one knows No one should know that "Still I love you so" A silent cry in the night Will be left unheard…