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Autumn taking in

But I know that's not the cause

Halting reclusion drags me down

This life hesitates to be enjoyed

Not the slightest prospect of change

Vicious circle

That I'd thought to have escaped

A lasting state of worry prolongs

Another mirthless year goes by

Another hopeless day

In another mirthless life

Regarding life's blithenesses

Like unattainable jewels in the display

Full of yearning

Yet aware they can't be mine

Grievously sensible

That sudden griping feel

All activates irrelevant

An existence most fatally reduced

Conversant becomes that state of mind

Forming my personality

The longly missed pass of being spared

Falls into oblivion