Cold at day, and so red hot at night, my heart beats when I see you in fright I just spoiled and wasted your beauty, was nothing more but perversity Just slash my veins to set me free, save me from what's torturing me I lost my youth wasting my time, I sold my soul just for a dime Illusion that booze will all sort it out Still searching for the meaning of life, I tried to find the reason of my self strife Try to find a sense from absurdity but I see just closed doors in front of me Days after days I fell whether sad or bored, I feel better just when I am stoned Like an infinite mirror with just me to oppose, I destroy all I touch, not even on purpose Puke and despair belched through my throat The diary of an alcohonaut Shaking craving for the next lethal dose Very far from the perfume of the rose I want it strong, I want it gross I find peace when comatose Why am I always so angry I want to destroy everything with fury No bottle will release my agony Knowing it won't last for eternity Twisted I am, what's fucking wrong with me Since I am my worst enemy