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1. Numbing

This monotonous life of

shit has caused me to want

pain and love in the most

extreme of forms.

I need pain to feel,

I need love to feel...

Anything, anything.

Empty, empty.

I need pain to feel,

I need love to feel.

I feel so unreal,

I feel so empty.

I need pain to feel,

I feel so ugly.

I need anything,

I feel so..

Empty.

I need pain to feel,

I need love to feel.

How far plugged in

must we be to realize?

I wish I could break

all this I despise.

I don't want to feel

part of this machine;

anything seems better

than this numbing.

I feel on the verge

of hateful attack..

Reflect your negative

energy back.

Am I doomed to slave

here or starve at best?

I need something REAL

to cure this unrest...