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I know you felt it too

It's presence in the dark sometimes

I know it wakes you up sometimes

Eyes watching. Teeth frozen in laughter.

It feels like drops of water on your skin

But there is nothing there

It feels like you haven't eaten for days and you breathe bile and it pushes up like it wants to flood your lungs and drown you

I know you felt it too

I know you heard it

Did it call you by your name or did it just whisper to your ear the word?

Did you feel it too?

 A razorblade slicing your eyeballs and in darkness like the grave you felt the warmth running down your face.

The taste of iron in your mouth.

Flies Inside your skull.

 acid in a wound inside your brain.

A sharp noise and something breaks ,like your head was smashed with a hammer.

Needles between your bones , pushing air between.

Bones pop. Under your nails.

Then just cold and warmth and cold again.

Hands holding you down . And your vomit drowns you, and you wake and you hear it call

Did you hear the call

I know you heard it too.

Did it call your name?

Did you hear it call out to you.

Eardrums ringing

Water flowing and warmth.

Your veins poundins so hard you want to vomit your heart out.

Like a blow from a club shattering your ribcage.

Did you feel it too ?

I know you can feel.

I know you saw it

I know you heard the call.

I saw it

I knew it before I knew you.

I want to whisper to you like it does to me.

 call your name in the dark .

Keep you .

Like it holds on to me.

This piece of you.

Like it took every piece of me when I broke.

I know you want to be kept.

I know you heard it too.

I know you can hear.

I will keep you .