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How can I get any rest?

Thinking about how it could change

This weighs on my mind

Staring at the sun until I go blind

Why am I stuck like this

There’s no way to come back

I feel the same after years passed

Hurt doesn’t end it’s all I am

One word is all it takes

For someone to decide if it’s time to leave

If I just answered the call

I might not have to greave

I know it’s wrong

to have these thoughts

It’s so fucking hard

living with regret

I never wanted it to amount to this

A monument to a life of what ifs

What could I change,

what the fuck could I say?

All the pain I wish I could take

I just needed another day

Do you know how that feels

Staring at the knife

Wishing I could take back a life

Why the fuck does this deal

have to be sealed

Do you know how it feels

Do you know how it feels

I heard it over and over again

that this was the last day

A thousand things in my head

that I never got the chance to say

I’m not a man of god but I started to pray

Just hoping in that place that she’s okay

I try to get better

But what can I really do

I lost my mind losing you

Now everything feels new

The time takes its toll on me

I don’t even know what to believe

I know you didn’t want to be here

You made that so clear

I’d do anything

to bring you back if I could

All the tears and all the years believe me I would