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Immersed in austerity

Time has never felt so ephemeral

A new variant of evolution

Aberrant deeds have consumed me

Although, righteousness is perceived

Discipline countermands free will

Virtuous existence

I'm still selfish, even more than before

Ignoring all for a chance to adore

Conflicting thoughts overwhelm me

Ambivalent in the vein

The sloth dissolved, obsessed thoughts spread like a venom

"When I peak this whole town is going to feel it"

Egh

Aahhhhhhhhhhhhh

Ooooooooohhhhhh

Torn and Scattered

Engulfed by vascular static

The apogee has been reached

Trial complete, I'm still not enough

These months cannot surpass the years

I've reverted back to my true form with desire to stagnate

I could never keep this up

Cannot wash away disdain I hold for myself

I've learned nothing at all

This transformation was all a feeble attempt to get close to the flame and feel her warmth again

I held my tongue through this whole process

Determined for a chance to access

Reality has it, you could not care less

How many times must I cater for this dissension

Tears fill your eyes, don't you dare

I am the one with the heart that is left Torn and Scattered

Enraptured souls intertwined

Remaining to decay in this space, cursed to see another day

Perpetually we go back to our ways and symbiotically we reanimate

All it takes is to hear her voice, this love it is a drug

Oh, the great lengths traveled just to see you smile

I do not wish to be brash, all I crave is to be mollified

Lifted from your caress

Revealing love in your eyes

Trial complete, I'm still not enough

These months cannot surpass the years

I've reverted back to my true form with desire to stagnate

I could never keep this up

Cannot wash away disdain I hold for myself

I've learned nothing at all

Perhaps, persistence

Comfort in suffering

I now realize that I am nothing more than addictions

In the meantime, I will continue on searching for a satisfaction in this reality