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Deterioration of my cranium and internal organs have been splayed

Here we go, bring it on

Agitated reactions from all surrounding me

From most nights I don't even recall

I scoff at the thought

You are the one who's overreacting

Everything I say and do, it's in all good fun, so why don't you shut the fuck up and take it with a grain of salt

Intervention

Banishment

Denounced for shenanigans

Tarred and feathered

Mirror reflects, face turns scarlet from embarrassment of my actions

Temporary solution where therin lies the problem

This is all I know, habits enforced

Resistant to change

The time has come to make an alteration

Out of Spite, I Thrive

Conquer infinity

Silence the temptations

Obey the ritual

Persevere no matter what

Anxiety coursing through my veins in place of the alcohol that once occupied the space

Enough contemplation, pull the trigger

Decision to endure to the other side

Nephalism reveals I live two different lives

One succumbs to desires, the other seeks enlightenment

Never before have I felt this vulnerable or determined to prove the naysayers wrong

But it's not for me, it's all for you

No longer will you think of me as a buffoon

I'm dead set on making all feel inadequate

Chronology of my being

Words mean nothing, all action from here

A man is nothing more than what he purposes

I will follow through to the end of perpetration

The question will be answered, are you worth it?

Adherence

Obsession

Praised now for my vigilance

Restored decency

Mirror reflects, face is glowing from consistency of my actions

Temporary solution where therin lies the problem

Explore the unknown, habits reinforced

Willingness to change