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I open my eyes to witness the decadence

Of my own mind and its brain cells

Distorted nature of my hideous subconscious will

Makes me grab myself by the neck and push my bones in

I can't breathe no more

The world around spins in circles

I feel the worms

They want to eat my body

I carve my own eyes

From the sockets, which cry me to stop

I tear my own gristles

I can see my own hands

The holes in the earth

I will crawl in one of them

The holes in earth

Just where sinners burn

Biting my own neck

I am not invited

To the ceremony of my burial

The cemetery dance

I bleed disgust

This is worse than a nightmare

And somehow best

I have ever felt