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I am not made of matter

I am not made of light

I carry so much weight in

A void of soulless blight

Search the woods but

Find no fire

Disappear in

To the spire

I’ll walk into the water

I’ll plunge into its depths

A freezing affirmation

A pale and cold shipwreck

Drag the lake but

Find no body

Disappear in

To the theory

Thick black oil

Flows so freely

I will soon be

Gone completely

Gone

I am barren

I am ghost

I am see-through

I am stained

Steep the climb

Numb the limbs

In the stillness

I give in

How can I protect myself?

How can I permit myself?

How do I convince myself?

How can I be someone else?

Crack the bones

In my face

Rearrange

How can I protect myself?

How can I permit myself?

How do I convince myself?

How can I be someone else?

Out in the ether I try to let go

Burning in silence I lay in the snow

Sick from the heartache of trying so long

Secret imposter, how can I belong?

Will I ever reach the peak?

Scale the summit, see the other side?

I am hollow, I am weak

I have nowhere left to hide