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Justify that you deserve more

You are the nothing you produced

And what do those words do?

What right do you have

To experience indignation in truth?

Exhaustion comes but I continue

I am unwell, I am tired

Of the actuality of the ashes in the hoarded room

Dusty and decayed, unhuman and deranged

Detached from the concept of self

And yet I long to find something, someone, anything

That again makes you material

Reborn into this world

That you have not felt any moment within

And I know what it is to look out and see the damage, to forget everything

And I know what it is to look out and see the damage, to forget everything

And desperately want to fix it, desperately want to change

Helplessly want to change

Hopelessly isolate

Endlessly embrace your hate

And be everything they said

I’ve gone far away

Can anyone love such as this?

Weak and powerless

How can we end this all without our final resting point alone in a dark room, loveless and screaming out for breath?

How can we believe that we were ever supposed to live at all?

I don’t want this fate for you anymore

No more

And its too late

Now that death has come and gone, I want you to belong

Never alone

Have a home

And what little remains

I could cherish that too

See strength in what is not lost

Yet it feels too much to bear

So, I go, pretend, instead

To be whole

And with each breath

Grow more tired still

Leaking through the cracks, always

Is the true self

Ready to snap

Ready to fight

Desperate for love

Bitter to the abandonment

Unable to accept people being pushed out

By your own lacking

By your own merciless heart