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Thou, thou cannot understand

a single thought that glooms my words!

The rat that perforates my head

is too misty, too obscure to seize…

And can you, can you understand that I

try to fill my heart with love

and my brain with clear thoughts,

bring the muscle to the body…

All and all just to bear this life…

Touch my eyes my tears blind me

my tongue’s plugged out so I can’t speak

my brain is washed from your reality

it’s hard to find a meaning in this shit

when pain is all you see…

I can remember a time I cared

- a bleeding heart in real despair

but life it sucked me out and I

I feel I lost the human way!

How how how how can I escape

the senseless daily overkill

without snorting crack or popping pills?

Is there any existence, -living without suffering

Or were we all just born to bear

a life that’s filled with agony?

You can tell, you can tell,

you can tell it to the sun!

Deep down the answer lies there

where the question comes from!

So keep on praying,

keep on praying to your gods…

but you got to tell them

where they belong!

“Fire spread like a furious demon

through the streets of Israel

and threw long shadows of death

over the walls of the houses.

But nobody awoke

‘cause they all had given up

sleeping long ago…

So every night when they dimmed the light

they died in their beds

to arise in the next morning

out of the ashes of their lost souls!”

My inner misery is anchored inside o’ me

sometimes it’s hard to deal with the fact that life is pain.

Even though my life is free, full of humanity

the outer world beats me with its stupidity.

I wish I would be wise, friendly from deep inside

give peace and bread to all, a Jesus of the times!

But there’s the bitter sweat transpiring from my head

too much that I don’t know,

too much that rapes my soul…

So I start to sing, to laugh, to cry it to the sun!

Even if the answer’s clear the inner search goes on.

But it’s not a god, it’s no one else but me

who finally can tell me where I belong!