Born out of spite Hate and feeling of insecurity I became dependent upon something in an injurious way Somewhere along the way I ran out of pride I was so predictable when harm rang the bell Both far and wide I'm sick and tired to ride the pale horse over and over again My heart has come undone Bitter, vicious - Like no one else's I don't know where I belong The lockdown has just begun - Parathon My eyes got used to the darkness To live without faith Volunteer for self-destruction Please God Redefine who I am Because I can't do it All by myself