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I wonder, for how long

Did you know what would happen here

Was it days, was it weeks, was it months

Or was it maybe even a year

I’m afraid to ask

For I’m afraid to know

But my curiosity

Is burning me

It is eating my heart

To not know

But I’m scared of the answer

My uncertainty is my cancer

I wonder, for how long

Did you know what would happen here

Was it days, was it weeks, was it months

Or was it maybe even a year

In the end, does it even matter

The result is the same

But I have so many unanswered questions

Like do you ever think of me by my old name