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agony enveloping the body like a coiled serpent

crushing it to death and rendering the components- now subjected to the weight of the overwhelming burden of everything you never want to do- worthless and meaningless, confined to the floor

pathetic, pouring fluids, a hollowed carcass filled with regrets and fear

powerless and alone

“empty terminal

eyes like coffins

tell me, how’s it feel?”

rapidly aging

i cannot come to terms

there is a pit inside my stomach growing every year

and the bigger it gets, the further i slip

into its grasping hand

waking up feels worse and worse now every fucking day

i hate the sight of my room

and i hate to look out the window and see that same god damned street

that i take to go to the same fucking places

and do the same fucking shit that i do every day of my life in a endless cycle of lies

i hate this place

growing in my veins

replacing all my value

what little flesh remains

i savor the paint that deceives you

when the face is stripped of all of its artificial flesh

and the idea of me emerges

as it weighs heavily on my chest

the gray longs for my warmth as i drown in ichor

the freezing blackness that coats my heart

the leech that drains my blood and leaves me there to die

“mother do you see me when i peel away the skin?

and maybe father doesn’t hear me when i’m needing help again

i just wish i could fucking touch someone without hurting them

i just wish that i could touch someone without hurting them

god dammit look at what you’ve fucking done to me

all i wanted was a family”