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I don't know if I'm losing my grip

Or if I know too much

Numbing fingers feeling for a surface

Maybe I'm just losing my touch

Laugh it off when I'm searching for help

Nothing so priceless

Should feel this worthless

Nothing I do feels any less pointless

I never stopped to help

But I did begin to resent you

You never taught me anything about myself

But when you gave up trying

You taught me how to cope

With losing my whole life

I know you were scared-

Imagine the fear in a child having to watch

as its mother loses everything

I could do nothing as mother cried her eyes out

I could not use death as an excuse

Goodbye to the ghost of shallow company

Goodbye to the ghost that taught me how to quit

I wish you were here to see how happy I am

I miss you

Now I breathe these words in solitude

These words that I wish that I didn't know

I miss you