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Memories embedded in the pages

Images infect me like a sickness

I just want this to be over

I won't be happy till it kills me

Please speak to me slowly, I'm sorry if I don't understand

This is the first year of my life that I have lived without considering

taking my own life and flushing everything down the drain

And if it's true that we are all our own gods

Then I guess the question has been answered

Cause I have created so many things

That I am too weak to lift up on my own

I lived within the fading

Shallow pools of empathy

You found the one that deepened

you made it an ocean

The sun has never been so bright

The wind will take my breath away

Now I feel like I've found myself

I can live on the outside

I was touched on the hand

You grabbed it and pulled me in

The faded colors, they start to saturate

Now they are so much brighter

now they're louder than life

The features they come to light

You helped me see the picture

A view beyond the frame

We made my life together

You showed me pain's okay

We took and smashed the mirror

Put a window in its place

Cause what's the point of beauty

If we all look the same?

I wanna believe that I'm alright

No more basking in pain

The leaves turn brown and fall away

But new ones always take their place

I am the Autumn of my life

I am no longer the fall