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I wear the night like a shroud

The light illuminates my face

My life means nothing

I merely perpetuate the agony of existence

I have no reason to stay awake

But here I am in a cloud of smoke

The stinging cold my face

It makes me feel like I'm alive

It makes me feel like I am dying alone

Everything feels numb

Take one look in the mirror

Before ascending back up to your cell

The anger and fear you feel right now-

In the face of a man who wants you dead

-It's only natural

I love you more than I love myself

But there's a line that I must cross to get to you

There is a man that I must kill to get to you

It is myself

I am the trap I set for you

The numbers on the screen,

They don’t mean a thing now

Oh the weeks how they bleed

And I feel my body aging

I can feel my teeth rotting

Seconds tick away

I’m getting older and my time is nearly up

I lie on empty laurels coveting from a distance

and I want to know why I can’t just move

to find another reason why I can’t jump off

I swear it’s not a sickness

these things they come in whispers

and I’m the one who hears it

and you’re the one who leaves me