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Grasping at the threads of now

Trying to figure myself somehow

Laying to rest my thoughts submerged

Hatred and pain they both emerge

Lost in my skin and trapped within

Patience and sanity wearing thin

Grasping for air feels like a sting

Anxiety exacerbated by the minute

Pile this shit inside the box

That I've building from birth

The letters of suffering written down

With ink crimson red, then turns brown

Barely hanging on by a thread

Darkness and shadows all in my head

Escaping like a silhouette

Full of dread and fully bled

The tips of my fingers turning red

Enough for the demons to be fed

The voices know what they have said

Dragging my soul by the minute

Causing those to feel the pain

Ripping and screaming all through the earth

The letters of suffering written down

With ink crimson red, then turns brown

Now the claws emerge from nothing

Tearing my kids just to force them to open

Feeling the nails digging in uninvited

Self hatred relishing, reunited

Don't want to see you now

I will not let this go

I'm dealing with the world that hates me

I will not see you now I pick myself up off the floor

Still dealing with the world that hates me

Won't see you now

Will not let this go

Still dealing with the world

That hates me