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I am in the city

I am losing my fucking mind

It seems like the streets are made of nothing

Nothing but scum

Neon burns my senses

I should have beaten the life out of him

When I had the chance

To make me feel alive

I knew I would regret it

It made me feel alive

An injection of energy

A vital sign of no life

No fucking life

No fucking sign of life

I took the morning train to eastpoint

Commuters staring

My head pounds

Blood and dirt under my fingernails

Acrid sweat in my eyes

What do I know about

What do they know about me

Fire

I feel like my blood is on fire

And my veins are boiling

So where is salvation

I am searching for absolution

There is nothing but bitter redemption

And penitent absolution

Incredible and tremendous pain

My brain is on fire

One pill makes the retina blaze

And the other makes dead calm

Vomit on the streets

Human shit

I will capitulate to desire

To bite the hand

And purge the flesh