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Benumbing distraction

Merciless exhaustion

Pursued by a gloom

Whose pain I exhume

Damning fixation

Seethe with frustration

My acts self-defeating

Never receding

Slow suffocation

Self immolation

Fading memory

Loss of certainty

Internalised writhing

Malevolence Rising

Brooding with grief I curse and scream

At all the things that will not be

At all the things now left behind

Disbelief has left me blind

Blind