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When will I know that I am ready to live

I am waiting on a sign

Where do I discard this love that I can’t give

These feelings can’t be mine

The years I’ve spent hoping that this will pass

Have proven to be wasted time

If life’s beautiful why does it feel so crass

Waited long enough that it’s a crime

I feel too dead

To know that I am dying

Been ripped off for too long

To know what I am buying

I feel too dead

To know that I am dying

Been feeling this way all my life

There is no point in trying

No way to reverse my choices

I am stuck in between two worlds

Too afraid to speak my voice is

So grotesque that it hurts

My mirror image mocks me every day

It says I’m an abomination

It keeps me alone and leaves me no way

To gather any information

I feel too dead

To know that I am dying

Been ripped off for too long

To know what I am buying

I feel too dead

To know that I am dying

Been feeling this way all my life

There is no point in trying

I do not know who is stealing

My only chance at clearing

This persistent fog and breathing

I’ve had enough and I am seething